Dear world, i'm back

It has been one year since I last posted. One long, tedious year.

Since the previous year, I have grown. I have cried, I have laughed and I have shattered.

I began 2011 as I always do a new year: In obsession with that same old jerk. I ended this year growing the hell up.

He just wasn't worth it. To all those girls out there: If a guy doesn't ackknowledge your presence, GET A CLUE and MOVE ON! Don't waste Three Years thinking about the worthless shit. when people say "Other fish in the sea" They were NOT kidding. The sooner you get over said pig, you'll find a sweeter, kinder and more loving person who actually CARES about you!

Over the year, i Have OFFICIALLY stopped liking Taylor Swift and am now hating her sickly sweet, unrealistic guts. I have learned that Evanescence is not total gibberish and that they actually have MEANING in their songs. I have discovered Three Days Grace and I can say They. Are.Freaking.Awesome.

This year, I got 5 emotional stabs to the heart, but all of them were a wake-up call. and i've finally decided to get a life.

So, for now, I'll leave, but I have a whole holiday to update...

TO BEING BACK

A new twist to the word sad

My melancholy has taken a depressive turn. For those of you who do not know my personal details, take a hike.

Imagine obsessing over SOMEONE for plus-minus (give or take a few months) 3 years and finding out 3 years later that they do not acknowledge your prescence. Well, then you have pretty much got my situation.

Now, imagine that person being competition in...titles. Both trying to attain the highest stages of nerdity and trying to become the new King or Queen Geek, that adds to the drama, doesn't it?

Wow, i AM sad today!

Oh sheesh!!! comment coz i don't care!!!
Latest fave quote of the month: SCREW THE WORLD!!!

m

ps- its a cool pic rite?

A dead love

Life is like the ocean. Sometimes it's rough and brutal and at other times it is calm and docile. Love is the wind and breeze. At times its force is alarming and at other times it's as gentle as a mother caressing her newborn child. A few quotes from people about love.

“Love is just a word until it is proven to you.”
~Unknown
Too true.


“At the touch of love everyone becomes a poet.”
~Plato

“I love you; not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.”
~ Roy Croft

“Love is like a piece of art work, even the smallest bit can be so beautiful.”
~ Stacie Cunningham..

“Love – a bare whisper that makes your body ignite with such uncontrollable curiosity.”
~Unknown…

“Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness.”
~Oliver Wendell Holmes

“We can only learn to love by loving.”
~Iris Murdoch

"Ah sweet and unconditional love is folly. For love shall eventually die like all else."
~Mariam Patel

And so it shall.

xoxo
bibi

Tears

I feel a chill creep over me. The tears well up in my eyes. The basin over-flows. I feel them trickle down my face and past my chin. A tear is a means of getting rid of stress from my body. My thoughts are confused. And I see that quick flash of those dark, chocolaty eyes. So deep, so intense. They speak volumes louder than an empty, soulless pair of blue eyes. Yet, they look beseechingly at me. I feel a tingle, and the dam bursts. It all flows freely, teardrop after silent teardrop. Nothing can save me now...

Dreams

Sometimes I dream of Frieds. Sometimes of dark eyes and small hands. And sometimes of Independance. A friend understands me. But in reality, nobody does. Normal people worry me. No joke. I have been let down so many times that I now think a true friend is non-existant. As for the dark eyes and small hands, that ship seems to have sailed. The only reasonable one of the above is ndependance. That is smething I am used to. A dream is worth living but the question is 'How does one live a dream?' In our gruesome lifestyle, I am petrified of the people who hate me. It is so easy for one to get drugs nowadays. I am constantly afraid of someone spiking a drink or food of mine. Is that a little paranoid???

I wrote a poem. It's the truth and from the heart. After all 'a dream is a wish your heart makes.'

A Dream
A person once said: "I have a dream"
But Mr. King never knew mine
A wish for a better world
With more sugar and cream
Less poverty
Less starving children
And peace.

My dream involves a peaceful Israel
Helping those that are poor and frail
Stopping bloodshed
And loss of heads

Keeping lives happy
And kindle souls with the fire
Of brotherhood
And peace
To iron out the fabric of this world
Instead of having it hurled
At the unfortunate.

I believe in love and happiness
A friendship between brothers
And a sisterhood between sisters.

However, my dream is impossible
As long as power exists
It could sound plausible
If we were all considered as equals
And no superiority
Due to richess or lineage
Existed
So be a united people,
Or die trying.

xoxo
Bibi

I Am What I Am

I want to revel in my sorrow
Forget myself in memories
Drown myself in tears.

I am the ocean
Calm yet ferocious
Loved yet hated
Remembered yet...
Forgotten

I feel as if I am on clouds
Floating in memeories
Happy yet grim
Charling yet...
Alarming

I am a dream
Sometimes pleasant
Sometimes nightmarish
And almost always...
Forgotten.

Yet I dream
Of you
And dream as I may
I remember and forget
Your way
Of talking, walking and
I am irascible

Yet...
I am what I am.

2010.05.20